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| READ AND GO SCREW YOURSELF!!!!!!
What's the season of love if you can't have anything?
What's the reason of love if you can lose everything?
What's the meaning of love? It's a crime if anything.
What's the meaning of love? It's a crime it's a crime.
i'm done with this, i cant stand to go to my exes site and see shes faking another person cuz i saw wat has happened and wat will be coming and none of you believe ma and i know she'll deny of course she'll never admit it but i know the truth i figured her out.....to late i'm afraid.......i will not post update nor change this xanga i bury it now with no regret and a pretty good run but its filled with my mistakes and wrong thoughts and to many bad memories to count, i may start another one and i'll giv it to those who leave a comment for it and i may let you know i may not...its not like n e 1 reads or cares about me n e more n e way............i'm afraid its over now.......you ever feel like you've been robbed¿ | | |
| the song i'm writing for kris is starting to come together but everything is still in segments i'll post when its more together....i know ur all dieing for it. i'm getting pissed again that all of you always comment on rayes xanga and everyone elses but i no longer exist to you ppl, but watever.i'm also pissed AT raye cuz i found out more wonderful new about my estranged ex but watever again cuz I'VE moved on and no one out there seems to care about me n e more, out of sight out of mind i guess, maybe i need to do like her and lie alot then u'll think i'm interesting and u'll leave comments.it also pisses me off u ppl who hav bleeding herts for her when i'm the one who got robbed and fucked over.SYMPATHY FOR THE DEVIL i suppose huh¿.and my last reason i'm pissed is is that she'll post poetry and songs and i see "wow ur great" and "post more" and so on and so on, but i pour my heart out and bring you guys stuff constantly and i barely get a comment. and yes i'm aware you all have lives other than ur sites and xangas and stuff but i like to get sum attention u always find time to post 4 everyone else including her but not me, thats sum pure bullshit guys and i dont appreciate it!!!!!!!!!!!! its like i'm posting 4 myself and my g/f to see and rarely i get a comment and recently its not even my so-called friends its strangers who think my site is interesting.....but ok i see how it is........allgn urself with miss raye west y dont you and have so much empathy for her i've only thought about suicide at least three times last night, but i didnt continue that course of action cuz i hav a reason to live and its for my beautiful new girl friend and again it seems my "friends arent even there for me. ugh!!!!!!
n e way for the three ppl who do read lol
i had a great day hanging with kris me and her went to best buy and i bought a new guns and roses concert dvd (use your illusion one live from tokyo '92) and she got the cures new cd. i'm prolly getting new guitar strings tommorrow. and kris gave me a bunch of her pics and a note that i luv to read cuz i finnaly have a g/f who cares for me back other than me giving my heart and not getting one in return. i'm kinda sad tho cuz i miss my one "real" friend (no offense to my other friends but when u hear who it is you'll know what i mean by "real")ben. he has been my friend 4ever and i cant even keep in touch with him cuz i hav no long distance and even if i called he prolly wouldnt be there. we were the best of friends and to me he was my best friend. i wish things coulda been different,i wish me and him woulda never been introduced to that wonderful non addictive bullshit known as weed (i really wish HE in particular wasnt introduced to it) but if theres n e thing i learned its we cant change the past. i wish me and him coulda made the band that we planned on since the 9th grade. u can ask my other friend mike bryant we were totally in tune when we played together on guitar and bass we both made seperate songs by ourselves and one day we played them at the same time and they went together perfectly, if that says n e thing to you.......i just wish he coulda came with me here so i could hav my one true friend back. but n e ways i'm totally "head over heels with kris i'm afraid to go all into detail in fear that i will be called a bitch lol.but its true. i hope everyone like my new icon ts me and her lol if u cant tell. and u should check out her xanga to its pinkscreams its right there in my subscriptions so go to it u bastards lol. well i fear i have written far to much here so
peace love and sumthing else(watever u want it to be) BOO YA KA SHA
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| - Us
Pick me pick me yeah
Let a long long signal
At least at least yeah
Everyone is hollow
Pick me pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Pick me pick me yeah
You can even pay them
Pain (Hey)
Dive
Dive in me (Dive Dive Dive Die with me)
Kiss this kiss that yeah
Live alone lone single
At least at least yeah
You could be my hero
Pick me pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Hit me, hit me, yeah
I'm real good at hating (hitting)
---[The following are from some live versions.]
Take me, take me, yeah
Let along you signal
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is hollow
Take me, take me, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
You can even swallow
Lick this, kiss that, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is sated
Take this, take that, yeah
Everyone is hollow
At least, at least, yeah
You can eat my marrow
Prick me, prick me, yeah | | |
| fecal smiler
feeling a lil wilder
repeat crier
random profiler
u seem holier than none of these
u cant watch the forest burn from the trees
u fool u fool
didnt u notice it first
feeding to eat enuff to quench the thirst
but didnt that fall back to its place of birth
fleeting reputation with mother earth
didnt u notice from the time on the clock
that theres nuthing left 4 u darling but me
DARLING ME!!!!!!!!!DARLING ME!!!!!
fondation liar
fail safe buyer
overthrown raging fire
tongue tied variable trier
didnt u notice from the stench of your worth
they make pills not for endurance but more girth
i suppose we all lose sum self worth
i guess u lost ur reputation with mother earth
u should hav noticed by the strike on that clock
that theres nuthing left 4 u darling but me
DARLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DARLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........darling me- joey "me"
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| Hey hey lets all DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehehehehehehe yes famous death talk has resurfaced. let us all climb to the water towers and face dive hehehehe yes thirty vicatin and a bottle of whiskey should get us where we need to be.j/k j/k but i had u all on board didnt i. actually i do hav a problem right now tho and its with sum of these so called poets on these xangas not to say i'm very good or nuthin but hasnt wat was once and semi-still is amusing reading and formerly thought original writing become very cliche.i mean can we all kinda cut back on the lyrics of death and depression be cut back on or rather not cut back on but worded in a more original.its all so melodramtic bullshit now i mean its creative yes and yeah ur skilled at it but the problem is everyone else does it to so we"re all writing the same damn thing i swear if i hear anothewr poem go "o my o me i wanna bleed and rip my face off"lol i'm gunna go insane wat happened to sarcasm wat happened to being original the real artist steps outside themself out of there wonderful "comfort zone".and trust me ppl i think we're all stuck in this damn comfort me 4 one am not putting in another same cliche goth poetry advanced simple minded bullshit cuz n e 1 who knows n e thing knows words mean nuthing its all how its said.
n e way my update 4 today is that kris spent the day over here and we watched secret window and the ring.both were very cool once again.i luv her so much it makes sick.i actually wrote a happy song isnt that weird especially from me. i wonder who inspired it ;) lol.the one thats almost done is called "the urge" and the ther isnt quite done enuff to the point to even name it so be waiting 4 me to post those. skool starts this friday 4 me and i'm lementing when that day rolls around.i'm so scared of my new environment and i'm scared there will be no rockers who will talk to me and i refuse to change myself 4 ppl to like me again cuz i'm actually happy as a grunge rocker its the first time i became sumthing 4 myself and i'm not changing it this is me. its weird that ppl always say the kind of person they like and ppl meet me and talk to me even those that have dated me never seem to stay. i'm about as innocent as n e 1 else but i'm purposely naive, and i luv everyone even those who hurt me,i'm nice(at least i like to think i am),i feel like i'm a good person,i'm sensetive, i'm smart but not like annoyingly intellectual,i like to hav fun, i'm boring when it comes to running around at parties and being a part animal lol but sorry 4 not wanting to be a stoner n e more, and i'm told i'm not extremely bad looking(even tho personally i dont believe that) my downside r basically uncontrolled depression (i cant control it dont fault me! all i need at those times is sumone to talk to and hold me 4 a while n e way) paranoia, and skitzophrenia(which stays in check except when i'm epressed or paranoia doesnt get relaxed and stays with me cuz no one else will help me or talk to me lol). y doesnt n e one luv me 4 a long time not even that just talk to me 4 a while i hav kris now and i'm very happy with that...............i just hope history doesnt repeat itself. i dont think i can deal with another person getting lost in me and then running away. i luv u kris from the bottom of my nauseus burning stomach and flaming acid reflux heart lining lol. love peace and happiness from watever u wanna call me today BOO YA KA SHA | | |
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